Asian Samantha

It does not matter much to me, but it seems I've been lopsided in my own self. The best thing is I'm numb from this process. A price to pay for being careless. I wonder why guys are being guys, can't they fuck like Samantha Jones? Or can't I be like her? I bet it was never meant to be, more so I'm missing my soul. Am I self destructing myself with the vices I've done? The last laugh is beyond me.