Rabbit Heart

Many things are amiss for the past few days, picking up pieces of myself left all over, I found myself tucked in a scenery of the picture taken, the cyan hue sky with soft waves hitting the pristine white rocks, enjoying the sunset rays with silhouette of small islands in the vicinity . It was the happiest moment of my life and I couldn't ask for more, but what went wrong?

"Love Always, B.B"
I was staring at the computer screen blankly and ask myself what am I doing, writing this long letter, which somehow now tucked away in the archives for the longest time. Dug it out, reading it again to be sure but I just could not muster the strength to press the "Send" button. It was hard for me as my heart aches the minute I wrote the opening letter.

Maybe it's just a phase, but it's too long, too damn long. A second chance seems out of the equation, perhaps it was meant to be.

Single & Bitter

It is time for that moment of thoughts again, thinking with our articulate left brain for answers.

Touche! It's right in front of you.

The Talk

There is always 2 sides of a coin, God of Janus, two headed snake, Siamese twins. Two differing thoughts and views. The odd combination of pain & pleasure, feelings & dilemmas which engulf in this humble soul. The complexity of characterization that pique interest, odd questions of the night.

I can't remember how I have gotten myself at this stage, I've created a monster, the never ending greed, the need to be in the limelight, I think I have broken my own vows not to be air-headed. It started with that conversation that shouldn't have happen, it was inevitable because I need that little more extra, but still it gets into me so easily that I have repeated again the same old mistakes - which shouldn't have been in the first place.

Reality are always there at the horizon, disguise itself with a field of flowers stretched beyond imagination, hello old friend, for now, I need to forget you and concentrate on this fragile soul, yearning for a stronger soul to swift me away into a never ending dream.

It's A Man's Man's Man's World

For all the things in the world, I found peace with myself by spewing poison from my lips. It's an addictive trait by cursing people who are so up there in their heads, you have only one thing to do-

Ignore Them.

Though it's easier said than done, I found myself in the running rat race to achieve the possible, recent mental palpitations has resulted me into going gung-ho in getting all the flabs hanging around to be reduced to at least 15% this year. Quite a feat if you ask me, I still binged on food whenever I'm stress, in this case, jaded.

Still I have a job to hold on to. A job in the field I'm passionate about, but nonetheless there is so much to learn in such a little window time frame, and I am stressing myself out if things are not done accordingly, more so when expectations of being on the job is flying off the rocket. It is such a messed up scenario in my mind, that sometimes my thoughts veer off into the darkness.

Oh well, beautiful people are bimbos, agree? :)